I feel somewhat obligated to write about this since I’m currently in this situation. My ex and I dated for a bit more than a year and a half, from the start I had told him that through whatever happens I couldn’t be his friend. Not because I don’t want to (well I don’t) but I just can’t bring myself to do it, why would anyone wanna go from being someone’s number 1..to a friend. It never works and never will. Since he’s the one who ended things it was of course his idea to do this whole friends thing, I said no to it about 655269 times but then I always thought ok I’d rather have this than nothing at all..then I realized being friends is more shitty than having not having him at all. As hard as you may try, you can never be just friends with someone you care about..you can’t control your feelings, so when you’re sitting there pretending to be friends and acting like the shit they do doesn’t phase you..just know that you don’t have to be in that position. Holding back everything you have for that person just to stay “friends” isn’t worth it, why put yourself through that? I’m not gonna lie I’ve been pretending that its fine for a while now but slowly I’m starting to realize how fckn stupid it is..I even said the whole “oh you can tell me anything, as long as you’re happy I’m happy” shit. But forreal I don’t wanna hear about the new girl you’re talking to, I don’t wanna hear what you’re doing, how much you guys talk or hang out..I really don’t give a fuck. But when I say I’m happy if you’re happy, I’m not lying..I just wanna be the reason you’re happy and if that’s not case, I don’t want anyone else to give you that lol I’m selfish af. I’d be fine if you were just doing your own thing not talking to anyone, just being on your own..but once you come to me as a “friend” and tell me about new girls and shit, that’s when its time for me to just go. No one wants to sit there and listen to the person they care about talk about someone who’s replaced them..like who tf really like being replaced? That’s the worst feeling..so next time a dude asks you “can we still be friends?” ..Say NO NIGGA FUCK YOU, BE YOUR OWN FRIEND!
(Source: witchin)
02.
He was sure the beginning to this was the end
Everything was
Everything will be
It did not stir him anxious
To realize that all efforts were moot
That this energy was still
Inevitable
But never useless
Quite the opposite really
He was not fearful of anything
Rather it was pride that swayed him
Oblivion is what was to be
And he was to defy such fates
He will rule again
Mightiest of men would once more
Kiss the delicate jewels of his knuckles
For this, he was also sure.
“Got any more lessons you can teach me Yeezy?”
Yes
(Source: saint-sam)
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